first time out in 7 years, sunday night 4th may, so thought i,d put the blog in some kind of order everythings been all over the place..cards dotted about, witterings on too.

the reason i opened the blog was to jot down progress renewal of health and life.
will i do it ? heaven knows i,m in the hands of the gods....if not it won,t be for want of trying.
ive always felt since a child that i was hooked up to the universe..somehow or other....
the only thing i trust in..

last night very hot humid during the night..
got in well after dark, dreaming i was down croxdale by the river in a wooded area....

looking through the trees as if i was searching yet keeping out of sight,
i could see a small cottage, 2 small windows either side of the door,

thing that struck me the roof, the tiles were,nt the usual slate grey but brick red....vivid technicolor, i don,t usually dream in color.

thinking hansel and gretel will be coming along in a minute and that i should have a left a trail to find my way back out too.

then dreaming i found a brand new toothbrush outside on the path, a neighbours son came by and said "it,s mine, thanks gillian".

I could have given up years ago but that would have achieved nothing.

a life wasted,
so i keep going.